My Take on Horoscopes

Hi all!

How many of you check you daily horoscope or lovescope? How many of you believe in them? Personally, I've always been fascinated with them; it was nice to know that my 'fate was mapped out' and whatever mistakes I made didn't matter as much because it was 'my desiny' to do so.

It was fun to see what was next for me and somewhere along the line I depended on them. If my 'daily horoscope' said I was going to have a bad day, then I'd be cranky, if it said I'd fall in love or excel in a work environment; I'd be disappointed...and cranky. As you can see, they weren't really working out.

Then one day I stopped (I was having a major 'you can do anything' day. Seriously, I could have delivered a speech Marvin McFadden-style.) and I thought to myself: 'I'm letting a computer generated paragraph determine my life. Really?' It's one thing to read them and stuff, but to actually follow them to the letter? Not what I wanted to do, I want to make my own way in life. All this coming from a person who was kind of notorious for just bobbing along and not really enjoying life; I'm on my way to 'living life to the full'!

All that said, I'd still like to see a psychic, just to see what they think my life will turn out to be.

Anyway, as a reaction to a post written by the lovely Eleanor over at Mirror of My World, I'm going to write three good things about my day. (You can find the post here.)

• I got brought a mug of coffee when I woke up!

• I got the last slice of toffee cake!

• The time flew by at work!

What good things happened to YOU today?

Keep safe and keep smiling!

Els x

I'll Tell You What I Want, What I Really Really Want...

• An E Type Jaguar (they are the coolest cars ever, and they're really cute, too!)

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• A Red Pea Coat (All of my coats are really boring, and red is my favourite colour)

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• A Sewing Machine (I really like the idea of making my own clothes, so a sewing machine is a must have!)

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• A Record Player (they're cool and there's something quite amazing about listening to older music like The Cure on vinyl)

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• To meet the cast of One Tree Hill and Mark Schwahn (nuff said really)

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Keep safe and Keep smiling!

Els x

Summer

Hey all!

The past two days have changed me in the best possible way. Last year at Christmas time was the last time I was this altered as a person (but that was a negative way, whereas this is not); the only similar thing between that experience and this one is the way music makes me feel. Back then, Willie Nelson's 'Angel Flying Too Close To the Ground' reduced me to tears every time, and it made me feel like my heart weighed a tonne and my bones were equally heavy, but frail also. It, along with 'War Sweater' by Wakey!Wakey! were pretty much the soundtrack of that strange time in my life. It was a time of insomnia, coffee, tears, darkness, warmth and emotional distance.  It goes without saying that I recovered from the 'dark days' for the most part when I got back to school - it was mainly because I had to; I couldn't just mope around for the last 6 months or so of my secondary school career, could I? But although it got better, it never went away fully; the weight, the sleepless nights.

I'm glad to have had that experience, though. (I know, crazy right??) Looking back on it now, the days where I'd hide in my room watching One Tree Hill and the periods when I wouldnt sleep, I'd just wait until around 3am and then go downstairs to make coffee...they don't bring me the feelings that I had back then, I'm at peace with those memories now.

From January to about three days ago, I hadn't felt like me. I didn't even know who I was, really; but I knew that I wasn't the girl who crushed on teachers, I wasn't the girl who's mood swing were like a pendulum, I wasn't this selfish girl, who was so wrapped up in her own problems that she couldn't find the time to look out for her friends. I knew it wasn't me, but I was scared that I would stay that way forever. I haven't been changed completely over night, but I've grown enough to realise that I'm ready to start becoming the person I want to be.

There are moments in your life that you know you'll remember forever. It took two of those moments and one song to clear away the darkness that was left behind from Christmas. The first was at prom, dancing with my best buddies, singing along to Mr Brightside; I felt light and I was so happy that laughter fell out of my mouth. Then yesterday, I was in town with my big sister and the sky opened up. It was still boiling hot, but the rain fell nonetheless; I was only wearing a dress (I refused to walk under an umbrella, much to my sister's dismay) but it was something about that day. It was One Tree Hill Day, it was warm, and the way the rain fell on me just was the cherry on top. The song? Brooklyn by Wakey!Wakey! What makes it even better is that I met Grubbs twice at his concert a couple of months ago and I was front row to him singing my favourite songs (alongside one of my best friends Vee). I think the moment I became at peace with Christmastime was when they played War Sweater live.

Yeah, that's me with Grubbs!

Sorry for this long and very wordy post, but I had to share this with someone, and who better than a bunch of strangers, right?

Keep safe and keep smiling!

Els x

Prom and Beyond

Hey all!

So, 3 days ago it was my prom, and I thought I'd share some pictures/stories!

Here I am, getting my hair did! (Yes, that IS in fact One Tree Hill on my tv in the background. The obsesssion continues...)

Then (when I had got into my dress), I rocked on over to school and took some pictures with my friends. (The red bus was our mode of transport to Prom). You'll notice the gorgeous picture of me and Georgia ;)

Then we trundled (in our big red bus) over to the mansion. (I am well aware that the picture of us by the tree is bright pink. It was not intentional, and if I hadn't nearly frozen for the sake of this picture, I wouldn't have put it up)

These also weren't the only pictures of prom I took, but these (I think) are the best ones.

Also, it's worth noting that I had some moments that I will never forget (i.e dancing and singing along to Mr Brightside with my best friends). But I'm going to be honest, it wasn't what I'd thought. All of you should know that I never had a fairytale view on prom, but I certainly had ideas about what I wanted myself to do etc etc. And all in one moment on the night, I either realised that I had failed to do so, or that I changed so much as a person that it was no longer relevant. This realisation obviously threw me a bit, which explains my absences from blogger, twitter and society.

But I'm back to my normal self (mostly) and I'm ready for summer!!

Keep safe and keep smiling!

Elsie x