Things have been a little crazy lately. I left school, and because I'm done with school and most of the people involved, I hatched a plan. I'm taking steps to go blonde, I'm having a complete wardrobe overhaul and I'm going to start going to the gym properly so I can be healthy and all that jazz.
But anyway, yesterday I was listening to songs which were popular when I was little (eg colourblind by Darius, that TaTu song, R Kelly remix ignition, heaven is a halfpipe etc etc) and it made me think of how simple things were when I was a wee little lass. Back when writing in pen made you feel mature and when bras were scary and used as a hat instead of...well, what they're meant for. Even a few years ago, when the scary exams were in the distant future and I still thought being a teenager was awesome (yeah, that didn't last long).
For roughly a year now, I've been slowly watching the people around me change and now it's just mad. Is it me that hasn't changed yet? Or is it just me thats changed? Either way, I'm out here on my own and it's making me even more desperate to start college. The only thing that could make me feel sad about leaving is a ridiculously stupid teenage girl reason. Not cool.
Anyway. Blog safe.
Els x
Monday, 30 May 2011
Thursday, 26 May 2011
Friendlings, Spendings and Happy Endings
Tomorrow it's one of my last exams as a year 11 student. It's only an hour long (which compared to 2 hours isn't that bad), and I'm quite confident.
The thing is though, I cannot wait to leave. I know loads of people say 'I thought that, but on the last day, I didnt want to leave' and all that; and that's fine, I'm sure I'll be scared of leaving my comfort zone (even though, school isn't really comfort zone with the uniforms that make me look like a man, shockingly pretty girls and gorgeous people who are WAY out of my league), but I couldnt imagine staying.
If it weren't for my AMAZING friends (who ditch me in revision sessions :P) I would cut all ties to my pre college life all together, but obviously, I dont want to lose contact with my buddies! That being said, I think it would be naive to say that we'll stay as close as before, and that we'll be friends for 50 years. We're going to grow apart even its only a teensy bit...which is sad, but it's life, right?
I just can't wait for prom really, I get to dance around in my pretty prom dress with my gorgeous prom date, Brodi; it'll be a good send off I think. Alot of people have said 'Prom seems amazing, but turns out to be crap' la la la...I don't think that they get it. Granted, this romanticised version we have of prom, that our dreams will come true, we'll dance with the love of our lives, everyone will be brought together etc etc; is RIDONKULOUS! It's basically a party with people that you've known for four years. You've hated, loved, looked up to and been jealous of these people; but you've grown up with them too. It's quite a nice ending to a part of your life, don't you think?
The thing is though, I cannot wait to leave. I know loads of people say 'I thought that, but on the last day, I didnt want to leave' and all that; and that's fine, I'm sure I'll be scared of leaving my comfort zone (even though, school isn't really comfort zone with the uniforms that make me look like a man, shockingly pretty girls and gorgeous people who are WAY out of my league), but I couldnt imagine staying.
If it weren't for my AMAZING friends (who ditch me in revision sessions :P) I would cut all ties to my pre college life all together, but obviously, I dont want to lose contact with my buddies! That being said, I think it would be naive to say that we'll stay as close as before, and that we'll be friends for 50 years. We're going to grow apart even its only a teensy bit...which is sad, but it's life, right?
I just can't wait for prom really, I get to dance around in my pretty prom dress with my gorgeous prom date, Brodi; it'll be a good send off I think. Alot of people have said 'Prom seems amazing, but turns out to be crap' la la la...I don't think that they get it. Granted, this romanticised version we have of prom, that our dreams will come true, we'll dance with the love of our lives, everyone will be brought together etc etc; is RIDONKULOUS! It's basically a party with people that you've known for four years. You've hated, loved, looked up to and been jealous of these people; but you've grown up with them too. It's quite a nice ending to a part of your life, don't you think?
tell me tomorrow i'll wait by the window for you
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
Hey-o!
It's just me, trundling along in my bus on my way home from yet another eventful day...
I had my second exam today and it really maxed my brain out! I have another one tomorrow...I think by the time their over, my brain will be goo. Attractive image, right?
Don't you just love it when you finish exams half an hour early? Bloody hell. It was SO boring! Luckily, I didn't write on my hand much; but I actually went over my answers again...and almost fell asleep :L
It was in that half an hour that I was incredibly bored, that I realised just how excited I was to leave school; of course I'll miss my buddies and the eye candy, but there are some people and things that I won't have to deal with anymore. There are some bridges I need to burn and i can't do that while I'm still there...
Also, the uniform makes me look like a man. Just saying.
Anyway, enough of this slight downer..I have leftovers to eat and exams to revise for ;)
Say safe!
Els x
It's just me, trundling along in my bus on my way home from yet another eventful day...
I had my second exam today and it really maxed my brain out! I have another one tomorrow...I think by the time their over, my brain will be goo. Attractive image, right?
Don't you just love it when you finish exams half an hour early? Bloody hell. It was SO boring! Luckily, I didn't write on my hand much; but I actually went over my answers again...and almost fell asleep :L
It was in that half an hour that I was incredibly bored, that I realised just how excited I was to leave school; of course I'll miss my buddies and the eye candy, but there are some people and things that I won't have to deal with anymore. There are some bridges I need to burn and i can't do that while I'm still there...
Also, the uniform makes me look like a man. Just saying.
Anyway, enough of this slight downer..I have leftovers to eat and exams to revise for ;)
Say safe!
Els x
Monday, 16 May 2011
Gavin, Stacey and Going Crazy
You know when you have that person that you're kind of crazy about? You can't stop thinking/talking about them - so much so that even you get sick of hearing their name and you feel like you're on fire when they look at you...all that stuff. Well. I do...or did.
It's weird, I used be sad when I didn't see that person, but today, I didn't even think about that person all day. Winning. It's a brilliant feeling to know that I don't need anyone but friends to make your day 'Brill-yunt' (as the welsh man at Wakey!Wakey! said)
And to add to that, I'm going out for a curry tonight :3
Well this post was POINTLESS :L I just needed to vent, and my hand hurts from writing all day, so I decided to type :3
Stay safe bloggers!
Els x
It's weird, I used be sad when I didn't see that person, but today, I didn't even think about that person all day. Winning. It's a brilliant feeling to know that I don't need anyone but friends to make your day 'Brill-yunt' (as the welsh man at Wakey!Wakey! said)
And to add to that, I'm going out for a curry tonight :3
Well this post was POINTLESS :L I just needed to vent, and my hand hurts from writing all day, so I decided to type :3
Stay safe bloggers!
Els x
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